Abundant

A brief time of tranquility 
between the sound of slamming doors 
Let's me catch my breath 
and center myself in my core 

A friend to shoot the shit with 
while doing not much of anything at all 
I don't think it should be so fun
but I had an absolute ball 

A woodland path to walk my dogs 
A park they can make new homies
Maybe I can make some too 
I'm a likeable sort when you get to know me 

A cool night to cut the humidity 
Night creatures performing music 
My life is far from perfect 
but I'd sure hate to lose it 

There are mistakes I make 
almost every damn day 
Relapses that roll right over me 
but there are things I get right too 
every now and then, eventually 

My favorite armchair to read in 
I wish I was reading a message from you 
Then I'd know you were safe again 
and not trying to cope by self abuse 

I've fallen into that tempting trap before 
Plunged a fork right through my open hand 
My dominant hand too, stupid me, 
I thought I'd never hold a pen again 

Your pets won't understand where you went 
if you leave us 
Your kids won't understand why 
If you give up and take the easy road out 
the heart of this family will die 

I love you, though I'm a fuck up 
I didn't make it to Mom's side 
and I'll never forgive myself 
but I'll never let family down again 
So let's combine our spiritual wealth 

Prayers might seem thinner than smoke at times
but when two are gathered, God gathers too 
I hope you'll join me in asking him 
to be merciful with me and abundant with you 

Abundant in happy surprises 
no one could ever predict 
Abundant in peaceful longevity 
Abundant in happiness