Domino

I'm here but I'm a negative exposure 
Maybe I'll be acknowledged if 
I lose my composure 

Maybe it'll domino and 
everyone here will completely flip 

Turning tables over and throwing them 
Grabbing any nearby flesh, digging fingers in 
Pulling hard until it rips 

Everyone who dares get in our faces
Reach out, sink claws, yank 
Let blood spurt 
Drenching our rictus grins 
Running under our nails 
Dancing in it like performance art 

Such thoughts are uncivilized, unkind 
Not who I am 
But damn if it wouldn't 
get things done quicker 
to be a villain now and then 

I'll probably strike this all from the record 
I should, I'm just sick right now 
I caught a bloodlust contagion 
Not sure from who or how 

All this anger and aggression repressed 
It's in almost everyone I reckon 
Violent urges play on screens 
in our mental theaters 
demanding violent action 

I say no, I tell the devil no
These days I only ever say no 
I've become a moral man 
Where has it gotten me though 

Good manners get me dismissed 
Being polite gets me pushed around 
Waiting my turn means my turn never comes 
I never interrupt but when I speak 
I get instantly shouted down 

I'm the guy who's always 
making peace, cooling tempers 
My own outrage flaming within me 
Me stomping out the embers 

The bestial me forever denied 
My savage potential secret 
Everyone takes a piece of me 
When they walk away, they keep it 

Is brutality the only way 
I can preserve what's left 
Are swinging fists the 
most powerful negotiators 
If the devil rules this world 
will evil always have its day here 

God, find me in the scarlet haze 
flooding my co-opted vision
Lord, lull me back to lambhood 
Speak, Father, I'll still listen 

Even now I don't think I'm too far gone 
I write down the dark fantasy 
so the dark reality can be avoided 
I vent the fumes of fatalism 
and pray Your witnessing destroys them